A lesson of grace

Today i was so down because of some incident happened out of expectation. I became sentimental and frightened by the consequenses in my imagination. Then i walked into the church to attend the service. The pastor's sermon was about "God's Grace". He is the only one who is able to speak to me that: " I love you. The way of your living now is NOT O.K. But I'll walk through this with you together." It was SOOO hard for me to accept that things can be turned around beyond my comprehension. Wrong is wrong, and i have to fix it by myself. That was always the way i learned things and people said: "YOU have to be responsible." The only way to deal with it is stand up and be strong, face it.
But this morning i felt i was so fragile. No way to fix it without Grace. "YOU need help." I told myself. "YOU need to accept forgiveness and be given." Admitting that i am not able and i need others, and God, becasue we are all so broken.
Then this afternoon, things were changed in a way i could never predict. But it has just been solved in the most amazing way that first time in my life, I realized I don't have to carry the burden and try so hard to work on it all the time. Because His grace, I can hide in the shadow, lie in there, and take a break. Thank you my Heavenly Father!